Friday Afternoon Confessional: Most boring dream ever
I typically wake up at around 6:30am on weekdays, as that’s when The Girlfriend’s alarm goes off and I normally can’t get back to sleep. Last night, I had a dream that I was waking up in the morning and the clock read approximately 7:12 — that is, I dreamed that I was waking up at a time that, while less early than my usual wake-up time, is still considered pretty early.
I confess that I endlessly put off any task that requires me or may require me to talk on the phone. In this case, I am putting off choosing a primary care physician for my forthcoming HMO plan because I may have to call the office to see if they’re taking new patients and — I confess — to make an appointment for a check-up, given that I haven’t darkened the door of a doctor’s office in nine years. (Well, that’s not quite true, as I went to an “urgent care” place to get an antibiotic to treat a really bad ingrown hair and I went to a Walgreen’s clinic last year. Still, no proper doctor’s appointments.) I further confess that I have not been to see a dentist in probably seven years, so I should look into that as well. I floss every day, though!
I confess that this has been my last week of total freedom, as next week I have a “retreat” at Shimer College as well as a couple other meetings. The following week, classes begin! At the age of 31, I finally have, for the first time in my life, a job that is intended to be permanent. I can reasonably assume I’ll be in the same city this time next year. I am going to have a stable income more or less indefinitely and can maybe even start planning things, i.e., I can foresee the possibility of paying off debts.
I confess that, like most of my peers, my ultimate financial horizon is paying off my student loans. After that occurs, I will presumably still be receiving the income that was previously devoted to the loans, but I have no concept of what it would be like to have that much disposable income or indeed what one does with it. Even in fantasies about winning the lottery, my first priority is to pay off my own debts, after which I would pay off my parents’ debts, my sister’s debts, The Girlfriend’s debts, etc. What we would do after crossing the threshold from negative net worth to zero net worth remains unclear, however, even in fantasy.
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