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Friday Afternoon Confessional: Dynamics!!!

I confess that I have been relatively non-anxious since my paycheck situation was resolved, leading me to think that my anxiety is mostly situation-bound rather than pathological.

I confess that, particularly when The Girlfriend has to leave for work, my lifestyle sometimes strikes me as unrealistic. I may well have enjoyed more “freetime” in my adult life so far than many people will enjoy pre-retirement. I have weeks- and months-long periods with only minimal structured obligations — I work a lot, but outside of class and meetings, I plan out my own time as I choose. I feel lucky, but I’ve never felt guilty — I honestly think that everyone’s lifestyle could and should be more like mine. I am the change I want to see!!!

I confess that I can already tell that teaching in a discussion-centric environment is going to prove very helpful in moderating my perfectionism. Classroom dynamics can always be improved, and especially at this early stage of my career, I’m continually seeing things I can do (or should’ve done) to help matters — but there’s an inherent limit to what any one person can do to improve a group discussion. Indeed, that’s the entire point. And this makes me think that there’s an important ethical or even character-formation issue at stake in the kind of pedagogy Shimer does.


January 27, 2012 - Posted by | Friday Afternoon Confessional


  1. I confess that my wife and I are in the midst of the adoption process. I confess that the lack of control in this process is extremely difficult for me.

    I confess that I feel very good about myself when nailing the drum solo while singing *In the Air Tonight*.

    Comment by Jon | January 27, 2012

  2. You are the change we want to see.

    Comment by Guido Nius | January 27, 2012

  3. I confess that I rented an office. It’s a spare bedroom in a friend’s house. Close enough to bike, but I drove every day this week (combination of laziness and schlepping stuff over). I confess that my productivity was off the charts this week, although that may be as much having a number of deadlines as the office. But I’m optimistic.

    Comment by Josh K-sky | January 27, 2012

  4. I confess that preparing for a job interview during the week and food poisoning over the weekend prevented me from practicing guitar after my first lesson. This will force me to “cram” before today’s lesson. I fear this will be evident once I get to the lesson.

    The food poisoning also forced me to miss a 4-mile run yesterday. Even though this is completely reasonable (far more reasonable than running while recovering from food poisoning), straying from my training has left me anxious even though I know it won’t affect my preparations in any lasting way.

    Comment by Matt in Toledo | January 30, 2012

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